Bonnie's Post

When I first heard that Todd might have cancer, I could not process that thought. He has been part of my life since that fateful night we met in Chicago 28 years ago (we're coming up on our 20th anniversary this June). I simply can't imagine life without him. No. No. No. It's just a black hole.

When he called me at work to tell me he had been diagnosed with cancer, I was at my desk. It was so unreal -- I felt I could hardly breathe. I heard this wailing sound I remember hearing the day my mother called our house to tell us my 15 year old brother had died in the hospital from a heart condition. It was the wailing sound my grandmother had made as she held the phone in her hand. That sound was coming from me...