Thursday Jan 29, 2009 -- After another long phone conversation with Dr. Fong, I finally decide to start with chemo/rad. I sleep better than I have in weeks, but wake up with another difficult decision to make – try to get referred by Kaiser to the trial at UCSF or not? Over the next 4 days I exchange emails with all of my doctors, repeatedly review the trial documents and read related journal articles on-line and try to decide what to do.